“I’ve tried to be forgiving. And yet. There were times in my life, whole years, when anger got the better of me. Ugliness turned me inside out. There was a certain satisfaction in bitterness. I courted it. It was standing outside, and I invited it in.”
― Nicole Krauss, The History of Love
I think this sums it up nicely.
Time to reflect
Sometimes during an argument, especially a long one, you have time to reflect or question how this might have been your fault. I realize my marriage had failed a while ago and it certainly can’t be just laid at one person’s doorstep. However, after much reflection (and a little help from Dave Chapelle) I realized B was using this model for marriage

And I was using, well, you know…a real one.
Hunter S. Thompson, John Cusack and Johnny Depp riding around with a blow-up doll.
Probably the greatest picture of all time!
If I give you this look, you should know you did something incredibly stupid or socially unacceptable. If you give me this look, expect for me to talk about you in a passive aggressive manner or at the very least, behind your back.
Movies!!!
Within the last year, I have become all. About. Movies. I love to watch movies.
I have always been excited for the Harry Potter Movies and the Twilight movies, but this year (and maybe next) might be the best movie years EVAR!
I give you, my reasons why.
1) Harry Potter: The Deathly Hallows, Part 2 - July 15, 2011

Words cannot describe how truly sad I will be when this all ends.
2) Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides - May 20, 2011

I LOVE ALL PIRATES!!!
3) Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn, Part 1 - November 18, 2011

4) Cars 2 - June 24, 2011

I am mostly excited for Eli for this because he LOVES Cars.
5) Fast Five - April 29, 2011

My only reasons for this one are purely shallow and I think I’m in love already.
6) Water for Elephants - April 22, 2011

I loved this book and the film doesn’t look too bad.
7) The Three Musketeers - October 14, 2011

I love the Three Musketeers!
I’m sure there are others that I can’t wait to see, but this year, the movies are where I’m going to be!
I’m a terrible woman
If there is one thing I know, it is that I am a terrible woman. I can’t do any womanly things properly. For years, I chewed my nails and then when I do grow them out, I painted/paint them odd colors. This is probably because during my formative teenage years I didn’t have nails to paint, so I’m regressing.
But, I have also never progressed past the first few years of having my menstrual cycle. Every month, that I haven’t been pregnant, I am always surprised that my period is coming. Oh, I’ve learned who has tampons/pads/cotton balls/whatever around work so my emergencies don’t require me to leave with a jacket tied around my waist, but at 31 you would think I would have some inkling of an idea when my period is coming. I even keep a stock pile of “period supplies” in my office now, but apparently I am going to have to add extra underwear and a change of clothes to that list.

In case you were wondering, yes, I got my period. Also, it wasn’t early or late…it came exactly when it should and I was still caught off guard. I guess I will always be like that girl in middle school who always had a jacket tied around her waist…just in case.
AND, just when I thought I couldn’t be more surprised by the internet, I found this.
So there is a website dedicated to reminding you about your menstrual cycle and ovulation times…they’ll even send you a text message! So, I think I’ll sign up. Because, you know if I don’t know when my period is coming, I sure the hell don’t know when I’m ovulating. This diagram has never helped me either. I am still confused by it which explains my two children.

This person has the same obsession with Biscoffs that I do…I’m in shock about it actually…we have almost the same story minus the part about the spread…OMG…I didn’t realize there was such a thing.




